Sunday, January 17, 2010
A new year...
A new decade. A new year. A new you.
NEW, NEW, NEW.
What is our obsession with new? And must we rid ourselves of all old, just forget about it? And why do we decide this, think about it on the eve of a new year more than the rest?
As we pass the first week of the new year, a passage has been stuck in my head...
"Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you.
See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the Lord rises upon you and his glory appears over you."
Isaiah 60:1-2
To arise means you are starting at a place of having been knocked down. This means acceptance of the face that something has dropped you to your knees, maybe even thrown you down face first. To be face down in the dirt grants you an awareness of the fact that you are dirty, that others are “cleaner” than you. Those that do not get knocked down in this area that has beaten you have a stronger sense of how to stand strong. As we look up at those who are standing around us, we have to wonder what made me lose my footing? Where did my grasp slip? Was I holding onto something that I shouldn’t have? Was I standing on a weak foundation? And how in the world do I climb up from this mess? I am laying here face first in the muck of my life and the idea of even taking one step scares me. What if I fail again? What if I hold on to the wrong thing or person again? How do I clean myself up from this? Can I clean myself up from this because it feels as if the dirt and muck have consumed every pore of my body, that it is oozing into my entire being.
The act of rising takes courage and faith. The act of rising is a recognition of the fact that we have failed miserably. It also means that because we have failed and fallen, we are most likely to stumble again. If it happened once, can it not happen again?
But there is something so earthy and real about clinging on to the Lord, of holding on to Him so tightly, and knowing that I, if left on my own, will most certainly fail. I am rotten, ignorant, selfish, judgmental, moody, and extremely emotional at times (sometimes more than others). Yet how deep the Father’s love is for us...that even as we lay before Him a rotten mess, He is showering us with love and grace. That by simply trusting that He is with us, will never leave us, and will always walk with us...we are made clean. By choosing to move forward, to rise up out of the ashes of our sin, a new day comes. To trust that God rises upon us...
Day after day I fail. As this new year arrived, this new decade, I felt overwhelmed with the media blasting how this is our chance to proclaim this “new me.” I became increasingly aware of the fact that as everyone seemed to be seeking to “recreate” themselves into a “new” person, I still struggled with sin. Some of it the same old thing, some of it new.
And over and over as I read this passage in Isaiah I realized just how BIG our God is. My God does not expect me to recreate myself. God does not expect me to “have it all together.” God does not expect me to succeed at everything, or even much at all on my own. For it is only by the grace of God that anything good comes of what I do. All God desires of me is to CHOOSE Him daily. Over and over again God desires me to “become new” by choosing to love and honor and obey Him. Just to see the depth of our sin alone takes courage and trust, faith to believe that God will pull you out of the muck of your sin. To believe more in the work God can do and is doing than my ability to keep myself from falling.
So, Happy NEW Year!!! Here’s to a new decade, a new year, and a new attitude that God is BIGGER than I ever imagined, and that life walking with Him can also be bigger and fuller than I ever thought!
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Isn't it all about the journey?
Yet at the same time I sat there thinking those things I remembered that there is a season for everything...and that maybe it isn't so much about me wanting to relive those years as I want to relive those years and enjoy them for what they are. Rather than get so frustrated at times because of circumstances, always wanting more yet never able to really rest in the moment and accept it for what it was. Hindsight is always 20-20 right? Looking back I think I would be able to "relive" those years because of the perspective I have gained years later.
I want to relive those years because I want to live them embracing the hard work that it entails, to understand that while high expectations are for all, results are not always the same on the court. But working towards those high expectations is what matters, and what brings out the most in each individual. In turn, each person yields something unique and entirely necessary to the heart of a team.
So now I sit here contemplating life in this very moment.
How am I living it?
Am I walking with an awareness of the journey, embracing each step along the way? Recognizing suffering for what it is, searching for the lessons that God is teaching me, and seeking to honor Him along the way?
If I had to take a stab at it, I would say no. But although it isn't a new year...can this be my new "resolution?" After all, we never know what tomorrow brings, and as one of my first crew disciplers always said, "Wherever you are, be all there."
Sunday, January 4, 2009
A Toast to 2009
~ comments about Ernesto ‘Che’ Guevara, by Aleida Guevara March, in The Motorcycle Diaries ~
My desire in documenting the journey of an urban educator is to do just this...to show “how reality can permeate a human being to the point of changing his or her way of thinking.” I am not here solely to teach the children in front of me each day but also to educate those outside the city of the heart and soul that thrives within the individuals I am in contact with each day. We are all one people and similar in more ways than we can even imagine. Our hearts yearn for love, acceptance and relationship. The choices we make are mere reflections of where our hearts are at and the environment around us. As the stories flow onto this page, may your heart be captured by these men, women and children and the ways in which they chase after their dreams. Dreams look different to every person and every situation, but the decision to chase after one’s dreams make them grand and admirable. Breathe them in, cherish them, and begin to chase after your dreams...for only this pursuit will inspire those around you to do the same. The Lord calls us to chase after him by loving those around us, through genuine and humble service to others and pure worship to God alone. May His gift of grace set your heart on fire to love those around you.
A New Year
As I start to write I am seated at home watching the Steelers take on the Browns, a few days before the new year. I contemplate what this year has brought and what next year has in store. As usual there are vague ideas that run through my head but I have learned to not have plans too detailed or expectations too specific. Since I haven’t written much this year I wanted to give a little update on the year so far at JPA. Our school, previously called “G & Hunting Park Elementary School” was renamed Juniata Park Academy. Yay for having an official school name!
I am teaching 5th and 6th grade learning support this year, so although this is once again a change from last year there are many blessings to this!
1. I have taught both curriculums in the past! Never both at once but I have some familiarity with them!
2. The ladies I teach with (the regular ed. teachers) are AWESOME! Two new teachers, one 2nd year and all three are extremely flexible, supportive and fantastic teachers! They have made this year so much better!
3. I will have the opportunity (if I stay in this position next year) to work with students 2 years in a row. Next year I will have my 5th graders in 6th grade and that continuity will make so much of a difference!
School Activities, Climate, & Relationships:
I have had the awesome opportunity to get to know some amazing people at this school and feel so incredibly blessed to work with the teachers I do! I have made some great friends and look forward to continue working with them over the years! (Praying that they all stick around for awhile...) As for relationships with students, I have had a fun time getting to see former students in the halls. A trip to Eastern to show some girls a college volleyball game proved to be a great memory as they danced, laughed, and made up their own cheers for EU. In addition it was awesome to walk into school this year knowing the students ahead of time. My friend came over from Clemente to join our staff at JPA and I was able to help him with the Puerto Rican Day Parade. Walking through downtown with 80 kids dancing salsa and singing in Spanish was an awesome way to get to know more of the kids at school.
I need to take time to reflect on the highlights of the year as this year has also been really tough emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually. I have struggled with the busyness of taking two grad classes while teaching, trying to get some time in running, playing volleyball and spending time with my bible study ladies and friends. Many days I was unsuccessful at being prepared for one situation or the other and I have realized that I do not do well when I am stretched so thin. No one does but for some reason I have a tendency to think that I am superwoman. I hate feeling like I am not doing anything well; teaching, being a student, a mentor, a coworker, or a friend. I also have learned how much I rely on the relational aspect of my job. This year has been tough as I often feel that I do not know my students very well...
Through all of this though, God has been unbelievably gracious, forgiving and generous! Over and over again I have found myself in the arms of a friend that has taken the time to listen and to encourage! Praise God for my church family, for the Ya-Ya’s (our ladies Bible Study), for my coworkers, my family, and for my bestest friends. God has reminded me time and time again that He loves me unconditionally through their love.
As I head into the new year I am reminded that our efforts have absolutely nothing to do with God’s love for us. God’s love is so much bigger than we can ever imagine. His grace covers us and protects us in ways we can only begin to fathom. Praise God for being the Father that walks next to us, puts his arms around us, wipes our tears away, and shelters us from harm under the shadow of his wings. There have been so many blessings over the last few months, at a time when I have often wondered what I am doing here. Many questions and few direct answers yet I have a new outlook. I have learned that in times like this God calls us to be faithful and as we ponder what that might mean I believe that for now it is found in this...
To wake each morning and spend time with the Lord. To study his Words and strive to apply them daily to the best of our ability and through His grace. To trust with all that is within you, even when it feels like it’s so very little. To believe that although you struggle to see God’s purpose, He is ever-present and always working for good.
I believe that although I am so great a sinner, and continue to be so, God is good. God is at work and desires my heart just as much when I feel a mess as he does when I feel I have it altogether. Praying that this new year will be a blessing to His Kingdom.
Gloria a Dios!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
STAR Partner quotes
STAR Partners…2008-2009…
- What do you like to do in your free time? FS - “Art. I will show you ok.”
- What is your family like? – RD – They are fun but sometimes bossy.
- Favorite Food: RP - MickeDanolls (McDonalds)
- Favorite Food: DS – Blue. I have a room.
- Likes & dislikes about school: JO – I like getting awards and getting credit. I dislike detention & consequences. SS – I like math and I don’t like to test.o CS – I dislike recess when it rains
- If you could have one wish what would it be? FS - To have magical power to make all my wishes come true. MP – I wish to not go to school. JO – To be 16 years old and drive a corvette. BG – I wish my uncle won’t go back to jail. RR – to go to Florida with my family. FB – I want to be a superstar. DS – I would go paintball.
- ?’s about school: FS - How can we get more help for kids to learn? RD – Do you have to get all 100’s to go to college? JC – How do you learn Spanish? MS – Do we get our own room?
- If you could meet one person who would it be? RD – Barack Obama, because if he wins the election I would like to see the first black president. JC - It will be a girl because I like girls. MA – My Dad because I don’t know him and he is in jail and why because my mom told me. It’s my biggest dream. I think my mom will hold me back because if somebody try to fight.
- What do you want to be? SS – I want to be a cop when I grow up so I can save people. GM – I would like to be FBI because I could help my world. JC – I will like to be a train driver. BG – I want to be a tattoo artist because I like to be artist. BG – I want to be a roofer. MS – I would be a cop b/c my dad’s friend died.
- Biggest Dream: My biggest dream was when I was having a dream about a scary movie. JC – To be a professional skateboarder. EQ – My biggest dream is to go to my favorite rock band concert. FB – I would like to go to school everyday. (I swear I did not prompt this student...)
- Do you know steps to achieve your dreams? DS – I think achieve means to be good at something and be proud of it I think what might be holding me back is people teasing me just because I am different. JC – I want to know how do they make a ruler.?
Never a dull moment...and I'm definitely looking forward to the rest of this year! Keep the letters coming guys and thanks for investing in my students!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
27 years...27 dresses?
I was informed I needed an old bridesmaid dress back in Philly for my birthday. I didn't even allow the wheels to turn but just followed directions and showed up at Betsy's house on time. Turns out they planned a 27 Dresses themed birthday night for me! Complete with dinner at the Hibachi restaurant at Penn's Landing and then lots of time to hang with the girls back at the house! A picture is below for those of you far from home who were just dying to know what the plan was! :) We got lots of stares and questions but I kind of decided that we should all go out at least once a year like this...we've got the dresses - live it up right! Here's to amazing friends!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Fall Roomie Retreat
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Baking Cookies
I spent the summer shooting hoops, recruiting them to help in the backyard, with the flowers, play games with, or to wash the car. They are part of my family here in Philly and I love it!
Today, the long awaited day arrived. We made cookies. I remember how many times I made cookies with my mom. We loved every minute of it. As I showed them De and Keenan how to make cookies we talked about school and sports. We talked about what we'd make next. I asked them if they had ever made cookies before. "NO," they responded quickly, with cookie dough all over their fingers, spooning the balls onto the trays then gazing longingly at the dough left in the bowl. How quickly little fingers can work at cookie dough! And how excited they were to take some home to their family! They informed me that if I must take the rest in to my students at school, "they better be good to get one of these cookies." "Or else," Keenan said, "I'm gonna have to come find them." I ensured them that I'd only give them to the "good ones," and only then would he head home again, informing me that for our next cooking time we should make "those peanut butter rice krispy things again."
If you ever want to bake and feel like a kid again...come on over!
Friday, September 19, 2008
It's okay Robert.
As I watched this moment I was so touched by his response. Here is a kid who is loved at home. Here is a kid who was willing to walk over to a boy twice his size and comfort him. In a culture where pride and toughness is revered this boy didn't think twice. I was also touched by the simple fact that my God is at work.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
A Great Speech!
http://www.dallasisd.org/keynote.htm
Too tired right now but more tomorrow on the start of the school year! This kid's speech was inspiring though...which of my kiddos could this be?!?
Monday, September 1, 2008
September Already?
I am trying to be patient and remember that the beginning of each year is a process trying to figure out schedules for servicing students according to their IEP's and then assigning teachers accordingly. I suppose the good thing is that these days I get to have a say in how things work rather than being in the dark until 8am on the first day with students! It's the little things right? :)
The next two days will be spent running around like crazy getting the classroom ready, copying IEP's, and sitting in/presenting at various meetings. So...here goes! Pray for my students, my relationships with coworkers, and all the opportunities I have at work to let the Lord shine through. Pray that I can humbly see all the Lord is teaching me, to not waste a moment, and to treasure each part of this year!
p.s. I am absolutely in awe of how God has provided for me here in Philly. I have been so blessed this week by the friends and community at my church. Praise God in the ways that he provides and shows up in huge and amazing ways. Praise God for the faithful and caring family I have found at church. There is something so deep and intimate about living in community.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Soul Squad
Reese St.
Friday, June 20, 2008
End of the Year!!
This is what they had to say about the year (in their own words)...
· We all telled things that happened to us and we made people be funney like laugh.
· When we had progress reports and when we got treated.
· Tickets.
· I like about this year that I was good. I like about me lerning. I like about this year I was being smart.
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My reading gared (grade) got high.
· The STAR Partners.
· My teacher is nice and mean.
· I like the STAR Partners.
Things Ms. Minnich should continue (unedited):
· Just do the same things that you did this year and you will be fine but do things for people birthdays.
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Do not stop teaching. The kids will love you like we do.
· She should continue giving out tickets from progress reports.
· The tickets and the STAR Partners.
· The STAR Partners and continue doing tickets.
· STAR Partners.
Thanks again to everyone...stay tuned for next year! This summer I'll be enjoying vacation!
Friday, June 6, 2008
FIELD DAY!!!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Ice Cream Party
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Boys Volleyball
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Half Marathon
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Laura's Wedding
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
A Mouse in the House
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Turning Soup into Light and Hope
Pounds of carrots, onions, celery, potatoes.
Cans and cans of diced tomatoes.
12 burners filled with large pots of boiling water.
Well this isn't a math problem and I'm not going to ask you how many quarts of soup this can make - I'm going to tell you! Yesterday I made (moreso, my mother and father!, with my help) about 110 quarts of beef vegetable soup. My goal was to raise money to support the children of San Salvador that I spent time with this summer. There is an amazing organization called the Hope House that serves a homeless community. A volunteer psychologist comes to work with street children there but the building is without electricity.
The amazingly generous, loving, and supportive people of my home church community stood behind me and so far we have sold 134 quarts of soup (some to be delivered at a later time!) and raised another $200-300 in additional support and donations! Along with a grant from Thrivent Lutheran we will have raise at least $1000 for the Hope House! Don't listen when people say everything in this world is corrupt. There are amazing people who are willing and eager to support just causes! Thank you to my church family at home - and kids in El Salvador - get ready!
she was the woman behind the success!